After surviving a month on Professor Wilson’s English 100 class, I feel that I am getting comfortable with the course. We tapped on mapping essays and breaking them piece by piece to decipher its meaning. What I find difficult is that some people in the class understand the course very well and already have answers on their notes. Furthermore, these people just work and submit essays with ease. I find unfair that some people have that ability but, I think who am I kidding? I am new here. Trying to learn and understand a language of a foreign country, and desperately trying to cope up from the culture shock and the learning pace of these good people who welcomed us immigrants to such a diverse country. However, I should not make excuses about my learning curves and difficulties. In fact, I should be working hard just any other person in this world.
I was never adept with the English language. In the Philippines, we make English essays but the difficulty is not as hard as Canadian standards. I remember those times were life was slow and taken one step at a time. On the other hand, businesses were falling into deficit and are force to file bankruptcy. Here in Canada, you have to work very hard to achieve your desired output. That is why I always push myself towards perfection every single time even though it is not achievable.
Essays here, journals there, mapping fear and teachers; Fair.
In this English class, I think I should work harder and deliver some extra effort in the class. Also, I notice that I am getting weaker and may not be able to meet deadlines, but that is simply a thing that I cannot allow to intervene regarding meeting deadlines. Some people say that English is the easiest subject. Some say that Phys Ed is the way to go. Neither way is I not attuned to both of them. Furthermore, math, my affinity, is proving to give me a lot of pain and suffering lately. Sometimes I do not even know what to do with my classes. I am a desperate fool who lacks the piquant mind that he desires. This journal was actually a good idea where I can be myself and not judge by the haughty eyes of some people. As I finish this journal, I will make a promise to myself. “I will work hard in everything that I do and will not stop until I achieve my goals and endeavours”.
After surviving week 2 of Professor Wilson’s English 100 class, my uneasiness of having a disadvantage in learning the Languages Arts is diminishing. Last Tuesday, September 13th, we discussed about deciphering poems. He tackled the poem She Walk in Beauty by Lord Byron. After the class finished reading the poem, he started asking questions about the poem’s meaning. Then, he gave his own interpretation of the poem which left the whole class baffled because he started speaking about combines and the beautiful prairies. In the midst of the confusion, he supported his interpretation with the lines used from the poem. I was like: wow, he’s good, really good. He also reminded us that we need to “support our opinion”, which I find very interesting because one of my teachers in high school said that you “need to have a PH.D” for your opinions to count, supported or not. Poetry interpretation has always been an ongoing struggle for me due to the fact that English is not my first language and I am still learning its fundamentals and theories. Yes I can be called handicapped or crippled when it comes to learning English, but I am not the person who gives up easily. I have finished obstacles harder than this one, and there are tougher challenges that await me.
The following meeting, September 15th, we tackled on pre-writing strategies, in which we were told to read Fit to Print and Pattterns for Purpose respectively. Honestly, reading the books was a little “dry” to me due to the fact that I am not used to self-studying methods that university students often venture on and I usually prefer listening in class instead of reading tons of techniques and strategies that does not make sense to me at all. I wanted to raise questions on how pre-writing can executed properly, but he solve it right away before I could even raise the question. He discussed the dos and don’ts of pre-writing which I find very useful. Furthermore, I found that writing strategies that I usually use has some holes and some sentences do not have any connection to the essays at all which led to my teachers giving out questions marks on some sentences on my essays whenever I submit one. One thing I found new on this lecture was the Free writing, a method in which the writer writes and writes everything that comes in his/her on paper until he/she runs out of ideas, and the “real” ideas come out. I find this method to be very fascinating because I have never tried this before. Then, he started discussing about the three kinds of essays namely Personal, Persuasive, and Informative essay. I usually could not distinguish the difference between informative and persuasive due to the fact that both types of essays are very similar in nature. Writing has always been my weakness and it no matter how much I try to write, edit, and re-write, I often get lower marks than my target mark should be. I often work hard and it takes a lot of time for me to finish a high school essay. I think that I should spend more time expounding on my understanding of the Language Arts and get help if I could or even read and decipher the books that was provided for this class. I have just to try and try until I have it mastered. I just have to resort to my diligence because I do not have talent on writing.